Engagement Dreams-- Crushed

My anniversary was last weekend. Awesome Guy and I made it a year. *pause for sounds of clapping an noise blowers* I am very glad.... but I would like to rant for just a second. First, I can't tell you the measures I went through praying, hoping, and wishing on wishbones (also eyelashes, and 11:11 wishes) I did that my man would finally get down on one knee and ask me to marry him. My close friends keep asking me what he's waiting on. All I can say is, it ain't for fear of rejection... thats for DANG sure! I can't think of a thing I've ever wanted more, my whole life. He has this horrible habit of trying to get me to infer that whatever holiday it is (Christmas, Valentine's Day...), is THE holiday that he is going to ask. For example, at Christmas, the "silver, round, shiny" thing I got was.... a Slinky. Now don't get me wrong, I really LOVE Slinkys. They really are lots of fun, and bring someone like me endless hours of enjoyment. However, he KNEW what he was insinuating. Valentine's day... my gift that was "made of silver, has diamonds, is jewelry, and can be worn around something," was my beautiful necklace. And this time, our anniversary, it was "shiny, jewelry, can be worn around something, and I have been waiting a long time for it".... This is what I got. . .

Again, don't misunderstand; I love pearls, and have never had real ones. They are gorgeous and are going to look great with almost anything, but that is not an engagement ring! I really wish he would stop leading me on with this stuff. I told a friend that if it weren't for the fact that it would feel like I was stealing something from him, I would just say, "Hey! I love you, and I know you love me. So here's the deal, we are getting married. Meet me here, on this date, at this time. I'll be right behind you, coming down the long aisle. You can't miss me, I'll be the one in the white dress... looking super gorgeous. Now, give me money, and have a great day." Sadly, it can't be that easy. He has to ask my dad, and then apparently my mom (his idea), an THEN me. Then I tell the world, haha.


Also, we didn't do what I wanted to do ( except go to church, the park for a few minutes, and start a game of RISK we didn't finish... because he just HAD to play his game... have I mentioned I can't STAND that game??) I wanted to go to the Carnegie Library because there was an awesome art show going on there... nope. I wanted to go get our couch, so I could feel like I have a living room... nope. I wanted to go to Applebee's for dinner... nope, we got pizza for lunch instead. That last one wouldn't be so bad, except he told me the plan was to go to Applebee's for dinner, and when he asked what I wanted for lunch (i said Arby's) he decided to get what HE wanted. Ugh... men, I doubt they'll ever get it. I guess my left hand will just keep looking like this:

Mass Effect 3 can suck my big toe... I mean it!

I don't like Mass Effect 3. It has stolen my boyfriend. We literally had to have a talk about him managing his time wisely. It all started innocently enough. He invited me to go to the launch with him and his best friend. I was shocked, but mostly I was honored to be invited to something so special to him. I was moving up in the girlfriend ranks. It was an ok time. There were some clingy gamer kids that seemed to really want to stay included in our conversations. No big. We got home, and the first thing he wanted to do was import his old character. I can handle that, it's a shiny new game... yay. We went to bed with his Xbox on that night.

Since that night, he has literally played Mass Effect EVERY gosh darn night except one (last night because he had a date with his momma)!!!!! It is making me an angry girlfriend. You guys know the saying "if momma ain't happy, ain't nobody happy."? Well I assure you, it holds true. Even our anniversary... ! ... I don't know what you think about video games, but in my own personal opinion, they belong nowhere NEAR my anniversary. Especially when they are a regular part of my guy's life.

I try to be understanding because I know how hard he works, seriously... he works like, 60 hour weeks- every week... but I don't think I'm overreacting when I say that Mass Effect has stolen a big chunk of the man I love, and I know I want to spend the rest of my life with him, but I am not sure if I want to spend the rest of my life competing with an Xbox (or any other console- I'm not prejudice solely against Xboxes) for the attention of my guy.

Rant complete, peace!

Flower

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In an effort to feel like I am writing to SOMEONE, I have decided that maybe I will try my hand at Stumbleupon... I don't know. I really love writing this blog, I just want to feel like there are other humans out in this wide wide universe that are reading it. So, if ya like me, click the badge, if not... click it anyway... pleeeease, pretty please with a cherry on top? And whipped cream... and sprinkles???

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Valentines Day rant + pretty jewelry

So here's my rant about what I believe is one of the coolest holidays ever. *Disclaimer-- Valentines Day has never and will never define my relationship or my relationship status* I mean, it's a holiday devoted to one of the most beautiful things in the world, LOVE. I am seriously SICK of people dogging it. Particularly my roommate. She is making it unbearable! There is nothing wrong with being happy about being in love, or just being simply loved. Whether or not you have a significant other, chances are you are probably loved by someone, and if not, I promise, God loves you. He loves you more than any person ever could... (would you send your only child to die a horrific death for the sins of everyone alive and everyone that will ever live? I know I couldn't!)
It is very frustrating to go online, or talk to someone and hear them talk with so much anger and hate about a holiday and the people that celebrate it. Even when I have been single, my mom was always my valentine, and now I have my own daughter to be my forever valentine. I honestly have a whole network of people that love me, and I pray that I never forget that!

Now for the mushy stuff...

Awesome Guy got me the prettiest necklace for Vday. It's beautiful and captures exactly what I like. I don't wear gold because I personally think it looks outdated, and it also looks bad against my skin, in my opinion. I secretly like butterflies (guess it's not a secret anymore) but I don't make it widely known partially because as soon as you tell someone something like that, they want to bombard you with butterfly stuff, also I think it's a little cliche, but I likes what I likes!  Here's a pic of this lovely necklace:

I don't know if you can tell, but it has diamonds, and the word "Love" is kind of made into one of the heart's sides. I personally think it is gorgeous!

Hello hello again!

Hey guys!
so I know my posting has seriously slowed down, but I have been very, very busy! My best friend and I are trying to rent a house so we can raise our two b-e-a-utiful children together. There probably isn't anything cooler than 2 awesome moms and their awesome kids in one house. We think we may have found one, but I'm afraid that it is going to be a horrible idea. It's sooo far away from where I'm from, and essentially it means moving back to where my daughter's father lives... ugh! but the house is GORGEOUS! I mean seriously, the backsplash in the kitchen has glass tiling, and the bathroom is this pretty grey-ish blue. The outside of the house looks horrible, but the inside really is perfect for what we need. Awesome guy is really upset because I see him an average of twice a day. sometimes more... sometimes less... but if I move out that way I probably won't even see him every day. We would make it work...


The next reason I haven't been around much is because I have been spending as much time as possible with Awesome Guy. I told him that I love him, but he isn't ready yet. That's cool. I'll wait, cause I know he does, and eventually he will get up the courage to say it out loud. We have talked about the fact that I am not going to have sex before I'm married, which in true Awesome Guy nature... he completely agreed! AWESOME!  He seriously has my heart and I can't wait to see where this all goes... He loves my daughter, he likes my friends, he can even stand my family. If you knew the guys I dated before, none of them could stand my mom or brother, they usually got frustrated with how much time I spend with my friends, and I didn't have a daughter before Awesome Guy... so I'm pretty sure anyone would like her (she's adorable!), but loving someone else's kid is a whole other story.

Welp, I am sorry to say this but I'm pretty much praying that the lady doesn't want us as tenants because, as much as I like this house... I think it is waaay too far from school and work for me. I'll talk to yall later! COMMENT ON THIS!!!! I want to know what you think!

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